Film Blue

I like to daydream and

recall old memories from way back like

old polaroids from a wedding tucked away

in a shoe box

discovered some time later ...

the sigh that accompanies that or

the slight intake of breath right before

i kissed you the first time ...

the moment is fleeting but

indelible impressions on my

conscience stain like Pinot ...

Visions flash in my dome like

LED Christmas lights from our first Christmas tree

then disappear like

fireworks from the 4th of July

leaving dark negative space filled with smoke ...

The excitement of second base for the first time ...

stomach aches and

puppy love and

"will you go with me?" check one box ... Yes ... And

I think and recall

over and over

hitting rewind like

Netflix or blue rays

watching only my favorite parts of the movie ...

Fast forward past

Heart aches like lower lumbar and

working hands ...

Time apart ...

Insecurity ...

no security ...

Volcanic discussions like

intercourse or drunken tirades ...

Coming home to Dirty dishes and

clothes piled high in the hamper ...

No space

too much ... space

ex's ...

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Where's that remote ...